The main livestreams, the ones on Friday nights, are going to be cancelled throughout the month of June.
I have a few reasons for this.
1) Audience numbers are down. At this point, except for special times, it’s just regulars. I’ve gone into some streams with two people there. That’s disheartening.
2) I’m not as good as I used to be. Watching recent streams, I don’t know how Crystal’s going to get a “greatest hits” out. The energy and the humour from the earlier streams is not where it should be. Of course, one and two relate to…
3) I’m burnt out. Simple language, I’m kind of burnt out. I’m burnt out on video games, the industry, the people in the industry, trying to keep up with other games sites who don’t have our scruples, just most if not all of it. This is notwithstanding some things going on with my life off the Internet, a multitude of them, that have drained me. I’m not funny on the livestreams because I’m not really a funny person at this point in real life. All of this, all the work I”m doing in my three (3) jobs, everything has me sleeping four hours a day and a shell of my normal self. I’ve grown to dread the livestreams every weekend mainly because all I want to do with my video games at this point is relax with a game or two of NBA 2K12 or whatever Musou game I’m playing at the moment.
This likely won’t affect the RPG chats, but they’re impromptu to begin with if you’re interested in either Xenoblade Chronicles or whatever RPG I replace it with (everyone’s consensus seems to be, “I like it, but if you want to switch, that’s fine,” though spoilers are an issue in case it gets released in Australia). I think my point is that I need to spend my weekends doing some things for a while: going out, having some drinks, and not playing video games for five people who know what I’m going to say before I say it.
I’ll still be writing my columns, but my news output might be sketchy for a while. The college kids are all done with school, so I’m probably going to rely on them for the month. Then and Now and The Monday ‘Joe won’t be affected. If anything, I think they’ll improve with less on my plate.
Thanks to everyone for reading this far, and here’s to my going into July refreshed.